okay.just got back from school.
anways,just read through my friendster bulletin board.
the newest ones were from fudin.
its like...he felt so sad.seems to be like someone hurt his feelings or something.like...seriously.
you should go read it.like...he sent abut 4 of them,all about his feelings.
gosh.i feel so bad now.he seems so lonely.and my prepaid is now so low.sigh.
well,i would message him.its just his choice whether he wants me to cheer him up or not.but well,hope he does.but dont think so.
sigh.

did a poem that i showed my friend.thought of sharing it with all of you.


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life has been difficult for me to handle
but i found a reason for me to overcome these fears;
you were the one.
you were the one who has been motivating me;
you are my inspiration
though you may not have realised that every message you sent has an impact on me.
seriously,i did expeced us to be more than friends.
but i just realised that i was being silly.
how could i even think of searching for love in someone i just got to know?
but now i tried to change;be independant and not rely on you so much.
but i just can't take it,the fact of not messaging for even one day.
realised that you were special,in a way or another,
that i love you.



yes.surprisingly.i do love you.though i know that you just treat me like a normal friend.you just dont understand how much you mean to me in my life.but why cant you?
you knew that i always get worried over you,whenever you dont reply my messages,whenever you go overseas for you competitions.deep inside,i always thought that you needed me.but what happened?everything's wrong now.everything.
you expect me to be messaging you first.im already tired of that,dear prince.i've been trying to tell you that you're the only one i love,and the only one i care for.but still,why do i need to wait for so long for you to make he first move?dont you know that i've always rejected people for your sake.and you did this to me.after i confessed,you still did not say anything i wanted you to in return.why?you know that i've always wanted to tell you that i loved you.it was just because of the lack of courage that prevents me from doing so.
i've loved you for so long.
ever since i saw you,i knew you would make a great impact on me.i knew.
but now,i dont seem to be recieving the love i gave to you in return.
i've always waited for you to start a chat with me on msn.but it turns out that I am always the one starting the conversation.sigh.
is this what we call a one-sided love?is this?
i never felt this heartbroken before.
and a guy whom i loved and trusted so much did this to me.
cant you imagine how terrible im feeling now?
i dont have the guts to send you messages anymore.im shy now after confessing to you.i dont know how to talk to you anymore.
everything's just so totally blank.sigh.
i still have no clue whether you love me or not.
why do you need to do this to me?
why must you play with my love?

i love you.i still do.